The beauty of our dating story is that we'll always remember that we hung out first during the insurrection, and there's no way we can forget that. Since then, without having to relive every moment, let me just break it down how I've felt.

You make me laugh. Sometimes it's over the silliest things, but I smile when I go to sleep and I smile when I wake up, because I know you're out there and I know that I can think about you and be happy. Our sense of humor is similar, and we both know that we're human and despite the mistakes that everyone in the world makes (and we talk about all of them), we also recognize we've surely made them.

This also goes to show how patient you are with everyone. You understand that people are growing and changing. It shows a maturity I don't think I had at your age (wow, I promise to never say "at your age" again). And, you're really patient with me and my circumstances. You also don't rush anything. We can't with where we're at but I used to think, what if this isn't enough? But you seem at peace and I am in awe of that.

You're extremely caring. You understand the situation I'm in, that you're in now, and you still want to be a part of it. You listen to me when I need to talk and you back off when you know I can't. You are amazing at being a friend, at being a partner, and I know it's new for us, but if this keeps going, then this is going to be amazing.

I also know that your future, what you want, could be different than what I want. But I want you to know that I'm open to discussing things, to changing my future plans, because if a future includes you, then I can change for that. I want my future to include you. You are such an amazing person and you have made me so happy, that I can only hope I can make you as happy as you make me.

Happy Valentine's Day, Sam. I'm sorry we're not together for it but I think this will be the first of many.